I dnt give up on love,i give up on you.

Hi!Its been so long,i knw.Theres a lot to write,bt they just cant come out in words form.So pardon me fr being such.


Sara has moved to Taylors.And Mer is still here.Eiqa and Dayah and me as well.Bt we're nt that close anymore.I dnt write to let you people read my whines.We are still good bt things changed.Bt I cud say Eiqa Dayah and I are holding this one endless rope.InsyaALLAH.


Masa mengubah manusia.





Kadang kadang,i just dnt knw how to write,let alone hw to put a proper end in every post.



So,goodbye and take care,will do.


:)

Tomorrow my number should be called.

Apa yg hilang,xkn dirayu utk kembali.
Apa yg hampir pergi,akn aku biarkan ia terbang tinggi.
Apa yg mmg tak pernah aku miliki,xkn aku cari utk dijadikan hak abadi.




If they hurts,to keep,then i jz dnt hv the ability to make them stay.


Terbang la.
Kau bkn milik aku.
Dari dulu.

So would i be out of the line if i say,I Miss You?

I miss everyone.

Yes,i do.


Everyone wants to ride the limo with you.
Bt at the end of the day,all you ever want is someone who wants to take the bus with you when the limo breaks down.
-Oprah-

To you,got me?

Thanks if you do.



Tmrrw nyte,we cud check the results.
And i firmly believe,i did bad.


So,im praying hard to get a proud result,at least fr me.




This holiday,i am totally have been locked myself in my own house.Other than,being such an educated and refined driver fr my brother and mom is quite chippers me.And oh,abah as well.


My fren SMS-ed me and whines about his gf to me.His gf is the one who bothers nthng and that kind of attitude somehow screws him up.I cud only listen because this is really out of my capacity fr saying a thing.Let alone giving him advice.


Wt do you expect?
I myself dnt even have a bf.




Haha.


Come to this relationship thingy,i realized that i am someone yg having the expertise to change based on the partner of myne.


When i was with Z,i was someone yg amat insecure of anything.
When i was with A,i was someone yg amat cool,nthng cud screw me up.Haha.
When i was with A,i was being this insecure,again.
When i was with another A,i was being insecure jugakk.Yg ni mmg membunuh.
When i was with S,a lil bit of insecure,tp more to cool.
When i was with I,insecure holds me lagik.
And when i am with N,fr nw,i am someone yg amat xbother anything.And this really drives N insane.



Ohh,i need to upload the faces of every single one of my frens back there in Uniten fr my flickr.




IMU && ILY people!

To be wanting.

People xtend to frget their betsfrens,infact org bodoh je yg akn lupa their bestfrens let alone the memories they've been thru.Tp as tyme goes by,everythings change.so do you and i.And by that tyme semua things about hurting each other dulu dulu yg lama simpan popped into the minds and ur inner will drive you to nt being the old one.Saying the new frens are better and all while kdg kdg x pn.

Things happened fr reasons.


Lg lg,distance yg mmg cud do people apart.Pastu when we dnt feel the importance of us to 'em anymore,there is where we wud choose another path and start getting to knw other frens who might replace the old ones.


And the new frens and us happened to get along well.


Its nt about frgetting others.
Its about denying to accept the new me.The new you.



Kdg kdg kita mharapkn matahari,tp Allah turunkn hujan.
Kita sedih.
Tp rupanya,Allah nk hadiahkn kita pelangi yg cukup indah.
Bsyukurlah dengan apa yg kita ada.




Tp the most important thing,dnt wholly blame others,we are human,as well.
And as a human,mistakes are inevitable.



Hey,welcome to being human.
Mistakes?They are part of the package.



And those hurts you caused,
those tears over the absences of yours,
those pains which you just dnt bother to care,
you are incapable to pay me back.




So why distress?

Changes are normal.




There were the days where i wud sit and cry when i happened to think i lost almost everyone.Tp a few minutes after,the tot of 'wud they think of me just like i do nw?' knocked me in.And fr me,they just wont.They've been neglected me fr some period of tyme and they wud never take me as their priority anymore.This was where the new frens came and accepting me the way i am.They gave me some space to be part of em even i am nt identical to em.


Yes i do admit,partially its my fault.



Partially.It might be wholly sometymes.




Smtyms i ask myself,if they really need me,they wud find me.At least,give me a call.Or a text wud do.Bt they never did.If i am the one is drifting away,then why do they never ask me to reverse?


At tymes,i feel like they are laughing at me.




Maybe they deserve a good fren.
And the good friend dsnt verify me.


Bsyukurlah dgn apa yg ada.






And my mom keeps reminding me,
kawan tu mcm burung merpati.


And i think my mom is right.



Im sorry if i ever hurt you people especially my best friends.
I never asked this to happen.
I never saw it coming.



Bt i cud see clearly you people are still being sunny without me.
Maybe my presence might ruin it.


You people are still my bestfriends.
Always have,always will.

Our skin tears away as our memories fade with age.

I miss everyone.

Every single one.

EiqaSaraMermerDayah

NisaAinZatiSitiFadzrulShrekAdibFikreyShiraVeeEcahShaliniShidi

LilEmaFaiqahIekaJNik

&&

Others.








Cud someone guarantee me,that i wud own em till this ends?

Does he pull us all?

For i treasure our frenships.


I cnt afford to lose one of you,its even worse if its both.










Please be hw we are.Nthngs gonna change.Everything will just stay the same as we please.



Plant this in your mind.



And let those tears water 'em so they wud stay,sticking in your mind fr infinity.




I love you both.

Nt too much to venture,as well nt too much to offer.

I miss you loves,i shud say.

Hw cud i ever frget the days we spent together?U people are the ones who wud turn off those Suboh and Prep together with me.Gilaa kot.Haha.Ponteng Riadah lg la normal.Dh xde kecut langsung.Gagaga.Siapa yg selalu lapaq in middle of the night and wud ask Izo bwatkan Megi?I was the one who wud bwat ayaq.Rehan kna basuh.And Awatif yg mmg mengada ngada mmg xnk bwat apa apa,cuma bg guna mangkuk dia jaa.Padahal dia yg gedik lapaq.Haha.I cud still remember those days bila kita nk cerita secret and xnk org join masuk bilik,we put a paper on the door saying that we need some privacy.Haha.Mcm siod.Tyme Arwah Kakak Izo meninggal,kita semua pgi airport cr tiket.Masa tu sumpah sedey kott.I din say anything to Izo sbb I din knw wt was the right things to utter.Seb bek ada Rehan and Watip kn? :) I love you people.I wish i cud see you people lagik.TT21 The Best Frever & Never End.

5 Germanium.


I dnt knw why bt I will never get tired of telling others about my classmates.They are the best people ive ever met.I wont replace any of them with some amount of money fr they worth more.Sometymes,regret kicks me in whenever I feel that I was the one who blew everything off.I took things fr granted.I never appreciated them when they were around.And nw,here i am,whining everything,complaining all sort of things i cud,bt still cnt turn back tyme. :) Haris,the one who wud bahan me all the times.Azi was being the best guy fren i cud ever ask fr back there at Lgkawi.Hasanul,the nice guy who sat next to me.Rzmn and Wildan are the best silence guys.Haha.Farid and Butet whom i cudnt even find dh skrg.Leo yg tsyg yg sentiasa boosted me up.Mye and Idzyan,im glad i met you two somewhere along the journey there.Dayanne and Rye,so much fr being byk ckb tp still result gempak.And others,you were awesome!

And my other Lgkawians : Pedd Nun Iena Dena Iman Teng Anep ImanKA Nisa' Wawa Nell Shanur Alya Bambang Paan Deli Mim Alis Nihlah Anis && Others.


My PLKN Buddies.

Aindz,Maya,Dap,Isz,Fatin,Nor,Nuya,Ika.

Jac && V.


Rindu sial.Masa kat PLKN mana ada internet and all kn.So all i have was you people mmg the greatest la! :) Stp mlm pn mkn burger thats y i was gaining up mcm tornado!Yay.
Mari mandi kolah lg!Haha.I miss you guys.

FavQuotes:'Babi Tunggal!'

Haha.

Anyio.

Okayy ini plg kesayangan.Ini geng plg bangang i cud ever have.Haha.Intan Nabil Yana Alint.At the age of 18,we still maen mcm budak kecik.Haha.Maen bola,xpyh ckb.Maen mercun,lg hebat.Smpai kena kejar ngan felo.Haha.Even kejab je kita kenal compared to others yg i happened to kenal bertahun tahun,tp i love them with all my heart.Seriously.And i cud never frget,hw u people spilled ur tears fr me right after I said,i wont be there any longer.

Syg korg weyy.Raya nk dekat dh.Nk maen mercun lg?Hehe.




Ini pn sy syg.And Azwa jugak.Takde gmba.Sorry. :)
Thank you fr being a fren.Heaps of love.



I miss you people.Cuma i dnt hv the guts to always text and call,afraid that i might interrupt when you are in d middle of smthng.


Have fun people.
And Intan,sumpah rindu kau weyyy.